Lyrics & Life

i wish i can say what im feeling. usually tumblr is good at finding that one thing that expresses how i feel because i am not good with words. or there is that one lyric that i hear that just helps makes sense of it. but just not now. i just feel this hopelessness that i just cant get off. i thought i will be able to make it strong this summer. but it has only started. i dont know. i just need to find someone to talk to that can understand cuz thinking to myself just aint cutting it.

oh well. im starting to expect it anyways

i just needed you to come out just for moral support. whatever. 

You are not friend that i want you to be. You are not person that i can rely on when i want to share my thoughts. This is because you will never be willing to share you own life with me (with you telling me first) when i am available to talk. Once you are willing to do that with me, then that will be the stepping stone to us being better.

Should we be pretend that we dont know each other

No. Thats just silly. Lets just be grateful for each other, from afar. Just for now.

You honestly ruined a perfect good day i had today. I was just enjoying a good day at church. Every time we talk, it seems like you don’t really listen and digest what i am saying. Every time we talk there is something more you want to hear or want me to say, but honestly i don’t want to talk about it because i got most of it out of my system. I like calling you everyday just to tell you about my day, but now, i don’t feel like doing it. I feel like you just want to push your own experience and advice on me. I know you have had a lot of experience, but quite frankly, i don’t want it and will ask for it when the time comes and when it is appropriate. I know you mean well and have good intentions, but this is honestly how you make me feel every time you bring it up. Even if you don’t mean to.