i wish i can say what im feeling. usually tumblr is good at finding that one thing that expresses how i feel because i am not good with words. or there is that one lyric that i hear that just helps makes sense of it. but just not now. i just feel this hopelessness that i just cant get off. i thought i will be able to make it strong this summer. but it has only started. i dont know. i just need to find someone to talk to that can understand cuz thinking to myself just aint cutting it.